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Name: ashley
Country: United States
State: South Carolina
Gender: Female
Interests: Jesus, music, shopping, talking to and hanging out with friends, goin to youth group.
Expertise: singing, giving advice, being the shoulder to cry on:) ok so maybe not an expert but, hey, nobody's perfect
Romans 8:28
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
8/16/2004
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| i never thought this would happen. more and more i'm falling into the myspace hole. | | |
| i'm in a weird mood. i've never liked being the new kid but the person i was would have embraced the situation. the youth went out to eat. i met a guy tonight and he's the first guy in a long time i can actually see myself with. who knew he'd be a redneck!! everything seems to add up with him. and i cant tell you how he makes me laugh. but i didnt think i was looking for anyone and i dont kno if he is either... it kind of scares me to feel this way again...God i want Your will. let me kno Your will. | | |
| Pain changes people. trust me, i know. | | |
| can u belive it's been a month? 1 month ago today i made the hardest decision of my life. of course no one kept track, except me. i had the unevitable hope that maybe i wouldnt be forgotten. in the back of my mind i knew i would be. i kno life goes on even if i dont, but it's like it hasnt phased anyone, but me. i havent checked my email in 2 months. sure i had close to 100 emails but only 1 was not from a company or a forward or those stupid stock things. who knew simpsonville would be like siberia? i wake up everyday wondering if i made the biggest mistake of my life. logically, i kno i did the right thing. every other part of me is filled with doubt. and hurt. there is someone i never got the chance to say goodbye to, to explain everything, to kno i had this person's support partly due to timing and mainly due to me not wanting to say goodbye. i thought my decision would make my life easier. now all i have time and all i do is think. everyone has their own fun, friend-consumed, normal teenage life. all i have is emptiness. | | |
| it's been a while. yet so much happens in this while. i've made my new year's resolutions. first and foremost i'm going to stop avoiding my problems. this new me will face them as they come, yet not stress over them. i'm going to lose at least 20 lbs. i'm going to bring my grades up. and in the words of Dr Phil, have a "love fix in '06" which involves more than u think it would. me and God have to get back on the same page, well me getting back on His page actually. i cant expect someone to date me if i wouldnt date myself. lately i've become the worst possible version of me. that has to change. so basically the goal of 2006 is to become the best version of myself, and to do something i've never done b4(like touch a giraffe). i'm having knee surgery in exactly 1 week. this makes me nervous. i dont wanna say i'm scared exactly, but there's so much that could go wrong. i'm having both done at the same time. i talked to someone today whose daughter had it done and she said it was the worst thing she ever did and her knees still hurt years later. some of u kno my dad isnt known for the best knees so i'm hoping nothing relating to this is genetic. everyone just say a lil' prayer for me and the surgery. pray for my dad too. his sugar levels are over twice what they should be. this scares me. i kno it scares him too. his mother died from a diabetic coma 5 years ago this month. he refuses to admit he's diabetic, knowing it could end badly. he keeps saying he's not goin to live past 50 (he's 40). part of me thinks he's serious. this scares me also, along w/ the fact he has high blood pressure and cholesterol among other things. i'm concerned about him.
Question: is it possible to like/be attracted to someone even after u've tried ur hardest not to?
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